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Gadis

katamu
"ada gadis yang keluar dari telinga seseorang
tangannya gemetar, dan menggenggam api yang sebenarnya bersulut.
dan bunyi halimun di pagihari
tiba-tiba menimbulkan ketakutan
kekacauan masuk ke dalam hati
membuka segala celah tentang puisi"

dan tulisan:
a pen in her hand
is a pen in our hand
kebersamaan kami secara berurutan
telah menjelma kecekaman

"tak ada cinta dan lagu malam ini"
all day long we're alone
sebab segala perenungan yang mentautkan nama kami,
melahirkan anak-anak buta yang tak mengenal rahim ibunya
yang sepi.

:
kami meraung nyeri

sebab kami di sini tak pernah yakin
dengan keajaiban palsu

serupa bagaimana penyihir yang memabukkan kucingnya
mematikan orang dari kehidupan

kami pergi ke mimpi yang abadi 

--gadis itu menyusul kami
seikat kamboja yang hampir layu di tangannya,
ternyata masih wangi

towards us
all names had been waiting

lumut
tanaman
dan batu
begitulah kami
pada akhirnya menyatu

after arriving in our peace home
we died!




--sekayu, juli 2010

 

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