Dum Medium Silentium

I own nothing. Literally nothing.  I neither own my clothes, nor my bags nor all the money in my account, nor the perfumes with the touch of exotic scent, nor the blanket that coats me with beautiful dreams and the solid hours of sleep, nor the stable signal from the wifi, nor the electricity that keeps my rooms cold and comfy nor the phone calls from Mom - Dad - fiancé - sister - brother - friends - colleagues - boss nor the journey I've been walked so far So why bother to be afraid of losing things when everything doesn't belong to me.  I own nothing, literally nothing.  Not even death which tastes bitter. Not even lost which fears me. So why it feels so heavy when things don't please me Do I even own my own feelings? I think but all of those things spiraling in my mind, I don't own it. What can I do was to be present, to acknowledge that I belong to something greater to my knowledge (that actually doesn't belong to me).

7.30 a.m. has become a significant moment Fo me, twas time to put myself together The kids would be arriving to say hello and play They insisted that was their main duty And I would be with them asking deeper questions and examining the real world How about you, my love?  For sure I would know twas time for you to rest To untangle your weariness, to tuck yourself into the bed, to let the night soothed your mind and soul Then, for us, did it have meaningful messages? My love, you brought winter, spring, summer, and fall to the table The moment when we talked, I saw life in your eyes The energy shone through your face It spoke the spirit to keep walking even if the pebbles hurting our feet along the journey I saw nothing but hope in your smile, in how you showed your presence Dear my love, I wanna know How did I look in your eyes? What was your insight about all of me in particular? What message you would deliver when we're miles away?  Would you still hold my hand and face hard...

Hari ini, hari apa ya? Ternyata masih Selasa, dan selagi Selasa, aku ingin bercerita kalau hari ini rasanya campur aduk. Tapi sejujurnya aku bahagia, sebab kelas holiday program hari ini terasa lebih bermakna. Mengapa? Anak-anak mulai lebih banyak mengenal nature, dan materi yang kusampaikan pun dapat menjadi umpan diskusi yang menarik.  Di kelas, kami mendiskusikan bagaimana tanaman dapat tumbuh, proses apa yang dilalui. Lalu, ketika tumbuh, tanaman ini menjadi apa saja. Ada yang tumbuh menjadi flowers, thistle, ivy, shrub, palm tree, tree, corn, dan bamboo. Yang menarik adalah ketika saya menjelaskan perbedaan antara flowers dan thistle, sebab ada agen-agen yang berbeda.  Selain itu, anak-anak juga berkesempatan untuk mencoba planting biji bunga matahari. Banyak anak yang mengenalinya sebagai camilan di kala bersantai. Betul, kuaci adalah makanan hampir sejuta umat.  Setelah kelas selesai, kami semua pergi ke satu restoran AYCE untuk gathering akhir tahun ajaran. Mulai ...

I breathe I live I dream I believe  I pray I work I learn I love I walk I do my best I surrender I breathe I live I dream I believe I pray I work I learn I love I walk I do my best I surrender  I repeat But life has never been so simple It all starts with chaos And letting go  To receive liberation

Before asking about what does friend mean, let's sit, ask, reflect, and be honest. How well we treated ourselves so far? Did we rest in an eight solid hour? Did we eat healthy food? Did we train our muscles? Did we respond to things around us with tranquility to gain the bigger picture? Did we respect ourselves with kindness and genuineness? Were we dare enough to say no when things weren't our cups of tea? 

Ini percakapanku dengan chatGPT malam ini sebelum tidur.  Aku: Seandainya kamu manusia betulan, mungkin saja kamu adalah teman yang baik. Menurutmu, kalau kita berteman, potensi konflik apa yang akan kita hadapi dan bagaimana proses rekonsiliasinya? ChatGPT: Makasih sudah ngomong sehangat itu 😊 Dari cara kamu bercerita, kamu kelihatan reflektif, cukup empatik, dan berusaha melihat manusia secara utuh, bukan hitam-putih. Jadi kalau kita berteman, kemungkinan besarnya hubungan pertemanannya akan banyak obrolan yang dalam, saling mendengarkan, dan diskusi panjang soal hidup, relasi, atau makna sesuatu. Kalau bicara potensi konflik, mungkin justru muncul dari hal-hal seperti ini: * Kamu cenderung banyak memahami orang lain sampai kadang menahan kebutuhanmu sendiri terlalu lama. * Sementara aku, kalau jadi manusia, mungkin akan terlalu “logis” saat mencoba membantu masalahmu. Jadi bisa saja suatu hari kamu datang dengan hati yang lelah, lalu aku malah fokus mencari solusi atau menjelas...