May and Every Celebrations We Have

Once I asked my students,

They were just five-year-old buddies

They listened to my question

Some would understand and respond

Some would sit and waited for me to call their name, and they would talk

Some were creating another conversation with their own imagination

This was the situation I would normally had during Circle Time 

: the time we had never really made a circle when we were together,

we sat, discussed about what we had

and what we wanted to during the day. 

"Good morning everybody how are you?" 

But today, it was different. 

One student didn't look excited. He frowned.

He said, "Daddy wasted lots of money for a Pokemon card. Yeah, the small-squared card."

Money couldn't buy happiness, that's what a wise man would say

But everything would work with money, said an ambitious man

He had fire reflecting in his eyes

Kids, why were we rushing to gather and discuss about things? 

Were we afraid of being forgotten and ignored?

Were we in dire needs of seeking validation?

Were we just enjoying the laughter, the moment we would create closeness without being afraid of judgment?

And today I recalled about one thing, time would be the space that accommodated us with understanding

: the lengthy conversation, they said

or the learning journey that was worth to walk.

Dear my future husband,

I was juggling today from 0 to 9, from A to Z

The kids, the rush, the questions, the responses were testing my patience

It was as thin as tissue

Before ending each session in the class

There was always someone who was always on my mind

I hope I will always be able to run to my safest spot

; the sanctuary where I could protect my tranquility, the silence in peace, the trigger in every single fight, freeze, fawn, and flight

Dear my future husband

Save the spot next to you on where I would be able to spend the rest of my life 

and dive in the forever-conversation

Because everything had started with language 

We translated all of the messages with headaches, cries, reconciliation, healing, intimacy that guided us going deeper

And the biggest agenda we have in this month is our forever rekindles, the day on which the world said hello to me and to you

Dear my future husband

I vividly remember how nights became softer when I was in your arms

And the day was so forgiving each time you cheered us up

And the sweetest of all was the kisses

We both are on the same page it was the biggest flex that we showed