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Sajak Ganz Pecandukata di Hari Ulangtahunnya yang ke-21



dalam sajak ini terdapat 21 pasal yang menandakan usianya saat ini. mulai pada pasal 0 sebagai awal kelahirannya dari rahim Sang Ibu. kemudian disusul pasal 1 hingga seterusnya.

tertanda 100989

PASAL 0
bangunan lama rupanya telah mendirikan sesuatu
di hari minggu legi pagi sewaktu air ketuban melulur
dari rahim ibumu menuju tangismu. sesuatu itu
menubuatkan tentang nasihat

“kelahiran adalah ibuketiadaan.”

PASAL 1
maka terkuaklah bangunan lama
mengapa ia ada dan mencipta
riwayat di balik nama kanakmu. ketahuilah,
ia hanya terjadi karena pintu yang terbuka
setelah airmata mengetuk perlahan.

PASAL 2
ada nyanyian ninabobo, sayup
semakin kecil dan kecil
datang lewat puting susu eyangmu. nyanyian
itu menanggalkan sangkakala dari malaikat
yang mencoba menyerahkannya
kepada ibumu.

PASAL 3
apakah sakit yang kau kandung bermula
setelah bapakmu menghamili perasaan
tentang neraka. bahwa surga tak ada
di atas sana….tak ada di pikiranmu,
namun ada di perasaanmu yang sewaktu-
waktu bisa berlumur darah.

PASAL 4
siapa rumah yang merawat bayisepi
pada botol susu tawarmu saat kau teguk
di bawah pohon jambu bangkok,

nak?

PASAL 5
gigi-gigimu masih putih
berat badanmu masih normal
kulit tubuhmu masih kuning langsat
ingatanmu masih menyala
:
bau pasar yang terbakar di belakang
persinggahan simbah.
- maka berasaplah segalanya
gigi, berat badan dan kulit tubuh
bahkan ingatanmu -

PASAL 6
jangan malas menghafal siang
nanti kau tinggal tanpa mengenal
di mana bapak-ibu menghukummu
hampir setiap kali mata tak mau
pergi ke ranjang.

PASAL 7
ingatlah berapa buah jambu air
yang kau jatuhkan ke selokan
sehabis mual-mual mencium
air kencingmu.

PASAL 8
“tidurlah yang nyenyak, ya
biar cambuk di punggungmu
lekas merah.”

PASAL 9
di waktu maghrib, teras rumah
menjadi saksi nasihat bapakmu;
airmata tak mengenal waktu.

PASAL 10
sepeda baru untuk satu dekade
kaki baru untuk belajar mengayuh
menuju pengertian tentang
j a t u h.

PASAL 11
malam-malam ingin berkhianat
seperti teman sekampung
melarangmu bermain petak umpet.

PASAL 12
bagaimana penafsiran tentang kebodohan
pertanyaan yang mengakhiri jawaban
ke atas meja belajar,

“aku tak akan bertanya kepada bapak lagi?”

Semarang 2010

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