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: ayah bayu

Menunggu siapa lagi selain gang dan lorong yang kami umpamakan terus memaki dan berusaha bunuh diri?”

Ada banyak perempuan
Di jalan panglima yang lebar
Tikungan kota dan kawasan kota dekat muara
Paling tidak 
hidup yang berlayar di bawah Ampera
menjadi tempat tinggal paling mencekam 
di sepanjang bangun kami

Pukul tiga pagi waktu matahari
Tak banyak yang lewat
Pintu rumah dikunci
anak-anak kecil yang mengamuk manja dalam mimpi
Meneriaki rumah kami
anjing-anjing menggeliat di gerbang pabrik
listrik menjadi pucat
kerusakan arus terkadang memaksa kami terdampar dan hanyut
entah apakah teluk pun mengenal lautnya yang tak pernah kering

sebongkah batu yang makin larut
menyumbat ususparau kami yang terdengar nyaring
namun terpotong-potong

Ai... 
siapa pun yang memutar jalan di depan pagar kami
Apakah serumpun istri yang menetaskan telur di lingkar kepalanya 
tak kuat sekadar menjadi lindu yang ditunda kehancurannya  
Sedang dingin yang masuk percuma atas kami 
telah menjadi percikan meteor yang jatuh
Kerinduan di tanah
diamdiam berlubang
luput di dalam detak
luput di dalam jantung
luput dari apa pun yang membawa kesepian
mengutuk kami pada khusyuk
dan telungkup doa dengan bergantian

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