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Mungkin ada yang ingin kau sampaikan tentang dirimu
Kau bercermin di atas kertas dan melempar sisa cat air yang mulai mengeras
Kau menyapu dengan kuas, membersihkan yang rontok dari pikiranmu
perihal bagaimana semestinya mencatat dengan benar

Bagimu, menulis atau menggambar sama saja
Kau bebas memilih warna yang pas untuk menggambarkan kepuasan
juga punya kendali penuh 
untuk menerjemahkan merah bata yang tertindih kemilau perak

Kertas, memantulkan yang tak pernah kau pandangi dalam terang
Sebab terang mengacaukan yang mesti kau rekam
sedang gelap senantiasa bersikukuh memelihara sampah-sampah yang sebetulnya tidak bisa digunakan dalam proses pembaharuan

Kau menghitung hampir dua minggu hujan turun tidak diduga-duga
Ada cat air yang kepalang mengering
Lalu kau menyadarinya setelah hampir kau buang dan mendapatkan yang baru
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