November

 It's nearly 11 pm and I still cannot function well. Not to get people's attention, I'm going to say when I get mad with someone, I rarely will feel better soon in a blink of an eye. It takes me like hours, even days, to calm myself down. Getting upset and angry at the same time is valid, and we're all allowed to express it no matter what. I have some tasks that needs to be done today before running for office tomorrow morning. As you know, I keep doing nothing, sitting in front of my laptop and trying my hardest to buckle down. It's a nightmare, I don't even manage to complete all of them. All I want to do is create the mess, let myself punch the wall thousands times, scream as loud as I can, cry like a baby. That's it! Is it ok my fellow friends to let myself sink in the deep blue sea and never come back? I second the notion everybody is beyond my control, but will they ever be all ears?! 

When I get mad, I feel like I turn invincible, the minority that the majority will ignore, coz they think I am the one who will listen to them. It's no way to make any sense. It really is a good way to welcome the second day of November.