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: Onyo

Hujan pun turun
Orang seperti kita yang terhitung jamak dan nampak kecil dari atas sini
perlahan memegang engsel pintu, membukanya sedikit lebih lebar dari beberapa hari yang sudah lewat
Selain angin, kabar burung mengenai hal-hal yang membawa sial dan aroma menyengat kaporit dari dasar kolam renang ikut terangkat
bercampur dingin AC, juga panggilan-panggilan yang tak terjawab

Kira-kira di bulan kedua, selepas menyaksikan tahun baru
juga lentik api
Menyerupai kembang-kembang mekar
cahaya berkilat dari kaca jendela
Kita mengintip, dari balik jaring-jaring gorden

Terompet dan nada dering ponsel meletup bersamaan
Di kaca jendela yang dingin
pertengkaran kecil dari sebuah DVD film bajakan terpantul
"Kita begitu dekat
mencengkeram leher dan punggung, menggigit daun telinga, mengecup kelopak mata yang didera kantuk"

Aku bangkit menuju kulkas, meraih botol kosong dan berembun
Kau menanak air hingga mendidih
Lalu menumpahkan sebagiannya ke mulut botol itu
Ketika sedang hening, tiktok jam menjadi lebih deras
berkelejatan, dan mengejang

Meski dijatuhkannya barang dari dalam bufet
Aku tetap khusyuk
menggamit kedua tanganmu dan panas yang terpencar

Kekasih, barangkali kau ingat
besok ada yang mesti dibangunkan pagi
lalu pulang setelah sore menggenap


Jekardah, February 2020



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