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Pengertian Sebuah Makna yang Begitu Dalam

Apalah arti pagi dan rindu yang pernah kita bincangkan pada sebuah telepon genggagm
bila tak banyak yang kita mengerti
untuk sebuah makna, semestinya kita telah lama paham
tanpa mesti berkelahi dan berguling dekat kemaluan yang dilapisi kain selimut

barangkali karena kita terlalu sering merebahkan keras kepala yang begitu menyakitkanlah
seolah ketika pagi dan rindu mulai masuk bersamaan pada mata
lalu ke jantung masing-masing
ada sebuah gejolak yang terus berontak
dan bernyanyi-nyanyi dengan suara yang senantiasa ingin berpelukan
namun begitu lirih dan mengemis-ngemis rintih

padahal tak ada lagi tempat yang lain
yang dapat kita lalui selain lubang sepatu yang hampir dimakan rayap dan kutu
untuk menuju ruang yang menjadi awal mula bertemunya pagi pada rindu

beramsalkan kita
yang dulunya benar-benar tak mampu mengerti
segala pintu masuk yang bertuliskan
"pi, mungkin dua bulan lagi kita akan menjadi sepasang merpati yang baru saja bunting. menahan luapan keringat dan gigil yang bercampur kemesraan. pada kedua tanganmu pi, mimi mau hidup damai dan tinggal lebih lama lagi. sebab baru kali ini, mimi merasa menjadi perempuan yang paling setia"

--2011

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