L'Amour, Les Baguettes, La Joie

I frankly speaking have no idea what to write since the time for doing it is limited. I supposed to hit the hay earlier and tomorrow's gonna be Monday. It simply means I need to wake up early preparing my lunch box. You know ever since I prepared food by myself, it helps me to regulate many things. I try to build awareness as well of what I need to consume daily. From November 2023 until today, it gives a huge impact to my health and I start to have less hair fall.  It improves my skin and have less fatigue even if I need to workout with high pump. The only two concerns I need to pay attention to are having a better endurance in concentrating especially I'm gonna have my intensive workshop before the last exams plus time to rest at night. 

There are things that still bother me. People sometimes tend to comment on things when they shouldn't. I bet some of us are familiar with the term of unsolicited advice. Why we don't attempt to listen more instead of talk more. Yes expressing our point of view is significant, and being all ears and able to reflect are equally significant. This is my humble opinion, if ever someone pointing their judgement to me, the best thing I could do is react nothing and comprehend that the projection is theirs. Yes it hurts me, but life is a great blessing I shouldn't take for granted, right? Doing things and creating more are more important. It doesn't mean I put aside my feelings. This is how I take care of it, with peace and let go of the grudge, insya Allah the joy will fill my heart, my mind, and my soul. 

One of many things I wanna do so it could be a habit is thanking those who love me wholeheartedly. Loving me as a person who's always in dire needs to improve and become a better version of herself each time she breathes. For her it doesn't signifies ambition merely, but an obligation she needs to do as a proof of a servant of her Mighty Creator. 

I would thank people who parent, raise, nurture me, and spend their time with me sincerely and do not value this action as a transaction in commerce. I thank people who miss me, who sing songs for me, who dance and celebrate my existence, who pray for my contentment and abundance, who see the potentials in me, who scaffold my self-growth in a healthy learning community, who trust me to be their partner and to build a teamwork, who listen to me, who undoubtedly love me.

To my beloved man, I'm thankful for you who choose to be with me as I have the right to choose to be with you and no one could take it away from us unless we choose not to. I thank you for a well-spent Saturday night. I thank you for keeping your eyes on me instead of letting it wanders around the passersby, especially the girls,  lol. I thank you for supporting me to be more confident and sees the values in me. I thank you for gradually stopping me to be a girl with jealousy. I thank you for making me safe even when you're not around. I thank you for the silly jokes and laughter, the spirit to be more grateful, and many more. I thank you for making some adjustments in this relationship, I know you work on this mindfully. I thank you for loving us genuinely. If ever we have disagreement and argue, I hope we recall that we need it to grow together. Je t'aime, mi amor. 

Oh I could tell stew is my daily menu now since I could mix it up with lamb, eggs, beef, chicken, seafood, even with corn. I know it's far from perfect since it isn't that authentic, but I'm happy to prepare one almost every day. So the curry powder becomes the new friend for other spices in the cabinet. Life is awesome when we look at it closer. Life is the amalgamation of joy and peace.