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Uncertainty, Awaits Us

Dear my beloved one,

It is obviously OK to buckle yourself down on perfecting the experience that offered to your customers. I'm so proud of you. Watching you twist your legs as if tomorrow never comes, leads me to realize that what comes next in the future, only uncertainty awaits us. Somehow, after office hour, I looked outside of the window, the mind wandered but the body stayed.  When I'm not around, I guess the more you respect the tranquility, like I don't buzz and simply lock my mouth. Somehow, dramas keep popping and we distance each other. But deep down in our hearts, we deal with it, as disagreement is parts of our journey to be friends with the other. We normalized the situations when we we're upset, crazy, mad, grumpy, annoyed, so on. I often times, have no idea how to grow up gratefully, how to respond and stabilize the things beyond my control, besides this body and mind don't belong to me. These corpses I'm telling you right now, mine and yours, will be coming home merely to the soil beneath our feet. What else will happen when we're gone?

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