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Redefining What We Passionate About

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It's going to be five months soon, this 2nd March. To rekindle is to redefine what cheers our spirit up. We redefine what reunion is all about after in silence manifesting the abundance for ourselves, yup I meant for me and him. Our reunion is far from lovey-dovey. It's more of being available for each other anytime one needs support. People might think we are rekindling to pay off the lust and to create a greater flame in our hearts. The fact is that the flame stays the same, it shines not burns. 


I am much obliged to the man who keeps the red roses spring in my heart, yet June hasn't come. Each time he reassured me that new days were coming. The contentment is everlasting, the joy is in the air. He asked, "Can you feel the difference? My heartbeat, the walls, and the words I was trying to tell you, all are rhyming together in tune. They speak melody. I sing for you. I have been waiting for you in my arms." 


To the man who stares into my eyes in awe, we're far from perfect. He added, "Do you care about perfection? The sun shines perfectly on a sunny day yet one day when it's cloudy, the sun will hide behind the tree. The ocean dances beautifully. It is never motionless yet salty and dark in the abyss. The sugar is absolutely sweet. It is as sweet as you. Sugar gives us energy yet at the same time, it becomes drugs that control our mood and metabolism in addiction. What matters is understanding to care and not forget about God's most precious plans for us. We will succeed. The future awaits us."


To the man who delights my days and nights, I experience uneasy times because of him. Sometimes I get tired, and the more I feel like giving up and banging my head against the wall, the more comfort he tries to give me. To have him in my life has created complexity. Pains become bearable. A monotonous life becomes meaningful and worth living. I've spoken to God about him and I am thankful to be able to meet him. I ask Him to take care of my man and keep my man safe. I appreciate the willingness he has, to share a part of his life with me. I am growing to become a soft, feminine, relaxed, trusting, and nurturing version of myself ever since he provided emotional security, and displayed wise leadership and healthy masculinity. 

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