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Usia tidak pernah benar-benar menjamin dirimu menjadi dewasa
Tumbuh tanpa menjadi benalu mesti dicari
Ia tidak datang sendiri seperti bencana
Atau benci ketika sedang marah

Ketika kau cari
Maka carilah di sela-sela rambut yang terikat dan terjepit
Di lubang kancing baju yang sempit
Di perut yang sedikit-sedikit sembelit
Atau kantong celana yang menjerit
Sebab uang sakumu meluap
Sebelum sempat kau bekukan ke dalam buku tabungan

Menjadi dewasa sungguh sulit
Usahamu harus setinggi tiang listrik
Seliar belut yang meloloskan diri dari gerammu menahan lapar
Segigih tangis anak gadis yang dilecehkan
Seawet buku garansi menanggung kerusakan fisik dan mental
Setajam ujung silet, sebab jika tumpul
Kumis dan janggutmu akan terpangkas sebagian
Wajahmu menjadi tidak simetris
Dan perhatiamu teralihkan 
Pelan-pelan kau tinggalkan tujuanmu

Kau berjalan sambil meraba
Dimana ujung perjalanan yang panjang
Bukannya menangis dan berbalik arah
Kau malah berjalan semakin cepat
Mengepal tinju
Kau anak gadis yang menangis itu
Dilecehkan fisik juga mentalmu

2021

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