Tinggal Setengah, Tinggal Separuh

:sapardi

jangan kau bayangkan
matahari itu
menjadi pertanda
yang membelah ingatan,
kepala, serta tubuh kita,
lalu membuangnya jauh ke sungai

namun siapa yang tahu
dengan membayangkan
meski dengan semua yang kita miliki tinggal setengah
"aku minta milikmu yang separuh itu"
padahal tak ada yang akan menjadi setengah
pun separuh

jangan kau bayangkan
demikian sedikitnya tubuh kita
demikian kurangnya ingatan dan kepala ini
terkadang membayangkan apa saja
kepada dirimu, lalu untuk kita
setengah dan separuh itu
memiliki perjalanan yang panjang
bermuara pada kita
sepenuhnya menyatu

2012

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