Dum Medium Silentium

Let's do a simple math now for the year of 2025. 2 plus 0 plus 2 plus 5 equals 9. 9 as the biggest number in one digit number signifies the end of an era. What no longer suites us, will be let go. I am quite content for the journey. These 3 months have become the most pack months so far, just like last year. Handling things at the same time, the juggling, and 3 and 4 hours of peaceful sleep lol. Anyway, last year I also needed to cope with health issues and had a minor surgery. Resting means a lot and that's how I supposed to respect the time to breathe, to sit, to watch, and to live.  Let's just rest, not to stop, tu connais? Rest means to replenish the energy, let go what no longer serves me, to close the prior door and open the new one and I'm quite excited about it. C'est la vie, bon.  I wonder what would be my experience in the next year? Should I continue writing and publish an anthology, hunting pictures with my 13 yo camera, cooking and opening a small resta...

The exhaustion is real. It's not tired merely, but also fatigue. I still am grateful for what I've experienced and achieved so far. That doesn't mean to win, that simply means to taste what it feels like moving forward when I still figure out how to gain the strength, patience, and sanity at the same time. 24 hours a day will never be enough to just rest and get enough sleep when you dream that big. God will answer the prayers. At this point, He knows what's best for me. I walk the journey with Him as my backing. He hugs me when I'm weary. He grants me resilience. He guarantees protection. Over all, I'm quite content that I make a move even if it seems still far away to step on the finish line. Back then, my uncle gently reminded me that once I reached the finish line, it means I'm dead and could never create more. I do remember when I dreamed bigger to start a sensory class, making the proposal, maintaining health - work - life balance, etc, it was a roller...

Whenever I feel dumb, I shall remember that I am a teacher and a lecturer at the same time. It's bloody hard and I know I shall never step back. I walk this journey not by myself, not with myself, but with all of my willingness to climb up mountains. I want to see more from the world, I want to fly far as it is my free will. I want to create my opportunity. I am not going to do it by myself, I have Allah, family, fiance, friends, and these walking legs and working hands. Dear Mutiah, each time you feel that you are dying, remember that you have no time to die. The time you have is only for trying, never stopping. Fatigue and exhaustion are parts of life, so learn to rest. Be friend with black coffee since you know how it finally supports your brain work better. Learn to munch more fruits and veggies for a healthier digestive system. Remember, a well-regulated stress is actually required for this journey. Ain't no mountains so tiny. Allah gives you more than anything you have ev...