The best thing I learnt in this year was about how to stand for myself. I learnt to be more confident and comfortable in my own skin. I didn't put my attention to my weaknesses, of if I did that's because I wanna perform better and made the progress seen. I learnt to speak clear and be straight forward. I told people what I enjoyed and what I didn't like to do. If ever they doubted my words, it wasn't my problem. To communicate in two ways means to tell the truth and to listen to it. I also learnt to let go. It was easier said than done. Keeping myself built relationships when I wasn't ready or when I was lonely is equal to drink contaminated water in excessive thirst. I wouldn't heal at all. I learnt to live my life fully in happiness, sadness, tears, laughter, disappointment, envy, flaws, troubles, even in peace. It kept coming over and over. I am thankful for what I am today, right now. I learnt to light up the candles that represented hope, faith, and the joy to stay alive.
Kepada K. Aku mencitaimu sepanjang sinar bulan yang membulat sampai ke bumi tanpa dipantulkan ulang cahayanya. Air menggenang di tanah tapi hujan tertampung di kaca jendela. Langit berawan, namun bintang mengerdip, begitu genit berkelindan di balik matamu. Aku ingin mendaki ke atas bulan, memanjatkan hal-hal mustahil sambil memegang erat pergelangan tanganmu. Bawa saja aku, bahkan ketika kau sedang bermimpi, menghidupkan ulang harapan yang terpotong menjadi tersambung, satu-persatu, juga begitu pelan. Di perjalanan yang tidak begitu singkat, kita berkelana, mengarungi banyak kelok, jatuh dan tergelincir, menyasar hingga menemukan petunjuk dengan mengikuti kemana garis tanganmu menyebar. Tatkala garis itu terpotong, kita bergegas dengan menukik ke arah tebing yang masih hijau. Ucapmu, "Udara menjadi segar begitu kita senantiasa bersama." Maka kuikat kedua lenganku di pundakmu. Aku berdoa sejenak, bahwa meski bencana melanda, kita masih bisa berenang dan berpegangan lebih erat ...
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