The best thing I learnt in this year was about how to stand for myself. I learnt to be more confident and comfortable in my own skin. I didn't put my attention to my weaknesses, of if I did that's because I wanna perform better and made the progress seen. I learnt to speak clear and be straight forward. I told people what I enjoyed and what I didn't like to do. If ever they doubted my words, it wasn't my problem. To communicate in two ways means to tell the truth and to listen to it. I also learnt to let go. It was easier said than done. Keeping myself built relationships when I wasn't ready or when I was lonely is equal to drink contaminated water in excessive thirst. I wouldn't heal at all. I learnt to live my life fully in happiness, sadness, tears, laughter, disappointment, envy, flaws, troubles, even in peace. It kept coming over and over. I am thankful for what I am today, right now. I learnt to light up the candles that represented hope, faith, and the joy to stay alive.
There will always be the first time for everyone. The first time to hear, the first time to feel, the first time to move, the first time to breathe and cry, the first time to drink, the first time to eat, the first time to respond, the first time to play, the first time to play together and solve the very own problem, the first time to enter school, the first time to teach, the first time to talk and engage with numerous audience, the first to be and do anything. . .till it becomes one day. . .the thing that was hard and challenging, could become a piece of cake. It takes courage, it takes sweat and tears, it takes sleepless nights, it takes restless days, it takes commitment, it takes everything. Maybe it takes your happiness away either. It may seem scary and it may seem crazy. It requires self and stress management. I always have choices amongst these options. I commence to reflect. Back then, I love to compare people, wether it would be worth it or not at all. I compare A to B...
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