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The Love of 2022

 The best thing I learnt in this year was about how to stand for myself. I learnt to be more confident and comfortable in my own skin. I didn't put my attention to my weaknesses, of if I did that's because I wanna perform better and made the progress seen. I learnt to speak clear and be straight forward. I told people what I enjoyed and what I didn't like to do. If ever they doubted my words, it wasn't my problem. To communicate in two ways means to tell the truth and to listen to it. I also learnt to let go. It was easier said than done. Keeping myself built relationships when I wasn't ready or when I was lonely is equal to drink contaminated water in excessive thirst. I wouldn't heal at all. I learnt to live my life fully in happiness, sadness, tears, laughter, disappointment, envy, flaws, troubles, even in peace. It kept coming over and over. I am thankful for what I am today, right now. I learnt to light up the candles that represented hope, faith, and the joy to stay alive. 

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