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Life Recently Hard, Let's Hold Hands Again

Hi Daddy K, I really wanted to tell you a story of a couple who were arguing about things. They were close but they scolded each other. Logically, when we're close physically, it's unnecessary to yell a deafening scream. Words hurt a lot. Anger fastens the pain and triggered two hearts growing apart. 


What about when we fell in love? Miles away didn't matter since the hearts were dancing very close. They did tango. They balanced each other's steps. Peaks and valleys had a great difference, but growing together put their hearts united. 


Anger held a significant role in relationship. I was firm. And somehow could show anger. My words were somehow hurtful but Daddy K never raised his voice to scold or even got angry. He has a soft heart. I actually regretted the hurtful words coming out of my mouth. I somehow failed showing empathy. Dear Daddy K, if only you're here, I'm sure no words can describe the feelings I have now. I hope a warm hug could soothe you and us. He never did scolding me because he knew actually words could grow us apart. Dear Daddy, thank you from me sincerely. You're enough nor too much. 


Daddy, I truly appreciate small things you did that save our relationship. The question we have now is no longer about do you still love me or do you miss me too. The question now is about do you still choose us. At this stage of engagement, I learned a lot. Engagement means to reflect a lot what we need to keep and update in our relationship. 

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