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Brighter Days Coming

When I am angry
I look myself through the mirror 
I stare at the surface
A shadow emerges
It's a girl who looks upset
She holds her tears
And experiences the shortness of breath
She wonders above her head
The sun rises from the east
And sets from the west
The clouds collide
And gravity seems weak beneath her feet
She's floating in her sadness too
Some suggest her to react
But her heart says stop, sit, and reflect
Some suggest her to create more drama
But she has to choose
to not channel her energy for something wasted
C'est pas magnifique, j'y comprend pas
The eyes were desert
Now it's a stream 
She has only Universe to listen to her
to parent a girl inside, and to wash away all her doubts so she will be able to trust herself again
She's afraid of being lost and never come back
But Universe conspire to approach, to never let her go nor sink alone
There are times sun doesn't look shining
And the skies are gloomy during the rainy days
There are times she wants to talk and share what's in her mind and let it untangled
There are times she needs to knock everyone's door to tell them what they need to know in her perspective
But all the will to speak up gets stuck in her throat 
Then, she needs to swallow it again and repress her anger
But she's grateful she accepts it
Like a volcano, the eruption isn't delayed but cancelled 
There will be no catastrophe 
All the life, living and nonliving, matters
They live in harmony 
The Universe give her its hands to take care of everything while she does her best to change
She was a lost soul, and now turn to be more courageous to stand tall in stormy seas.

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