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Ada yang tak bisa kusebutkan hari ini Lelahku menjadi sukur  Aku bercermin melalui kaca yang berombak dengan perasaan tenang Hari-hari kupikul beban di sepanjang jalan menuju rumah, kantor, taman bermain, toko buku, restoran Jepang, taman kanak-kanak, juga keimigrasian Aku berjalan di atas sajadah dengan melapangkan dadaku, menundukkan kepalaku dalam sujud Lalu kucium bumi yang harum aroma hujan Sebab aku hendak bertemu Engkau Mungkin akan Kau dapati betapa waktu begitu kusut tanpa ketabahan Aku ingin memegangmu, mengatakan laut yang dalam tidak putus asa memberi makan para nelayan Juga api yang berkilatan di tengah hutan pada akhirnya membikin tanah bernutrisi tinggi untuk kehidupan baru yang didaur ulang berkali-kali Aku pulang, Sayang

Today could become one of finest day in my life. 20th October is Alex's and Nia's birthday. They celebrated their happy moments humbly. I really loved to see they're growing and becoming more playful. This was also the first time they had a video call with Kelvin. Alex is sort of a coy boy since his English is not yet good. But at the end, he could show his smile to Kelvin to just say hi. Few months back then, he was that enthusiastic to call 'Uncle Kelvin', that's how he called Kelvin. I just wonder what Alex would do and really want to spot his first impression to meet Kelvin for the first time later. Anyways, happiest birthday to Alex and Nia. You guys are amazing souls with gorgeous spirits. I truly miss you guys. There will be great days for all of us to gather, sharing nice moments, laughter out loud, cooking and enjoying good food, and discussing about plans for the family. Not only celebrating the birthday, Kelvin and I had 2 online IELTS classes. This w...

So last Saturday, my boyfriend and I had a satnite date. He didn't let me know what he wore and how he dressed up. Until he got off the car, I noticed we both wore black and white outfits. We both wearing white tops, he put on his linen shirt and I put on my white oversized t-shirt. Then, he put his black jeans on and I put on my black mini skirt (a bit shimmering since the materials were the blend of leather, spandex, and polyester). Awn, we also put on our black footwear. He had his black sport shoes while I had my black high heels on. When he came closer to me, I vividly remember that he grabbed and kissed my hand gently. I received his compliment with excitement and contentment. He said, "You look more and more beautiful, Mi Amor."  Merci beaucoup, Mon amour.  The credit goes to my Grandma and Mom 🤍

I often feel it was so hurtful to taste bitter things with people I thought I would spend the rest of my life with. Then I realized, when I looked back, I was also the pain, the bitterness, the wound for lots of people. Maybe one day, sooner or later, each of us will grow up, be a better version of ourselves, no more victim mindset, no more blaming, no more hurting. Sooner or later, when we meet, we have forgiven, put aside all the drama, pride, and ego. We're only human, the miniscule spot in an enormous and infinite universe. Let's heal from all chaos, let's live a better life presently, now, at this moment, so when we look back in the future, it would be a good memory, a walk to remember. Let's be more into peace. Let's celebrate more enjoyment. Let's weep for contentment that lies within our mind, heart, and soul. For loving is eternity. Let's stay sane and healthy too. Let's learn to love as human, from human, for human.  It was so touching to have ...

I pray, I think, I write, I decide, I execute, I bounce back, I change, I study, I create, I lead, I share, I teach, I support, I shine, I smile, I love, I appreciate, I learn to rest, I shop, I dress well, I speak with clear intention, I listen, I work collaboratively, I stick to commitment, I receive abundance, I live fully - gracefully - peacefully, I believe, I am healed, I put empathy and sympathy, repeat, therefore I am. What the hands do, the mind remembers.

I am grateful for what has sent and granted to me: the healthy skin, bright eyes, blooming smile, longer hair, moist lips, shiny and natural nails, stronger body, cheerful and growth mindset, abundance in money, great support system, peaceful nights to rest and hectic days to live fully. I love what I'm looking through the mirror - it's myself getting ready to hit the hay and wearing my one of favorite sabrina pink dresses cause when I wake up I wanna feel that I'm gonna waking up like princess who's always excited to prepare the healthy daily meals. I love you Mutiah, and alhamdulillah Allah is always protecting and guiding me. This is the love letter to myself and I celebrate each time I find myself again. I keep moving forward for I was born for something greater beyond my imagination 🤍 insya Allah 

Welcoming October with peace, tranquility, new hope with a better agony and willingness to be the better version of myself every single day, with love, awakening, and justice. Bismillah. The only thing I know about myself is that I'm tough enough to dive deeper for something much bigger.  Yesterday on Monday I complete the intensive workshop and final practical exam, and I pass. I vividly remember how i react after my examiners officially announced the results, they told me I can go and make a move. Learning is a playground time for me, it's a refreshment moment to reflect and design things new not only for me but at least for my teaching team and the community where I'm living with. So I shout merrily, hugging everyone there and trust me, it wasn't a piece of cake to step out of the class. I could recall the smell of the materials and their spirit will always be kept in my mind, heart, and soul. I'll be having my final written exam next year, when the long winter i...