Dum Medium Silentium

I often feel it was so hurtful to taste bitter things with people I thought I would spend the rest of my life with. Then I realized, when I looked back, I was also the pain, the bitterness, the wound for lots of people. Maybe one day, sooner or later, each of us will grow up, be a better version of ourselves, no more victim mindset, no more blaming, no more hurting. Sooner or later, when we meet, we have forgiven, put aside all the drama, pride, and ego. We're only human, the miniscule spot in an enormous and infinite universe. Let's heal from all chaos, let's live a better life presently, now, at this moment, so when we look back in the future, it would be a good memory, a walk to remember. Let's be more into peace. Let's celebrate more enjoyment. Let's weep for contentment that lies within our mind, heart, and soul. For loving is eternity. Let's stay sane and healthy too. Let's learn to love as human, from human, for human.  It was so touching to have

I pray, I think, I write, I decide, I execute, I bounce back, I change, I study, I create, I lead, I share, I teach, I support, I shine, I smile, I love, I appreciate, I learn to rest, I shop, I dress well, I speak with clear intention, I listen, I work collaboratively, I stick to commitment, I receive abundance, I live fully - gracefully - peacefully, I believe, repeat, therefore I am. What the hands do, the mind remembers.

I am grateful for what has sent and granted to me: the healthy skin, bright eyes, blooming smile, longer hair, moist lips, shiny and natural nails, stronger body, cheerful and growth mindset, abundance in money, great support system, peaceful nights to rest and hectic days to live fully. I love what I'm looking through the mirror - it's myself getting ready to hit the hay and wearing my one of favorite sabrina pink dresses cause when I wake up I wanna feel that I'm gonna waking up like princess who's always excited to prepare the healthy daily meals. I love you Mutiah, and alhamdulillah Allah is always protecting and guiding me. This is the love letter to myself and I celebrate each time I find myself again. I keep moving forward for I was born for something greater beyond my imagination 🤍 insya Allah 

Welcoming October with peace, tranquility, new hope with a better agony and willingness to be the better version of myself every single day, with love, awakening, and justice. Bismillah. The only thing I know about myself is that I'm tough enough to dive deeper for something much bigger.  Yesterday on Monday I complete the intensive workshop and final practical exam, and I pass. I vividly remember how i react after my examiners officially announced the results, they told me I can go and make a move. Learning is a playground time for me, it's a refreshment moment to reflect and design things new not only for me but at least for my teaching team and the community where I'm living with. So I shout merrily, hugging everyone there and trust me, it wasn't a piece of cake to step out of the class. I could recall the smell of the materials and their spirit will always be kept in my mind, heart, and soul. I'll be having my final written exam next year, when the long winter i

I cannot start the next chapter of my life if I keep rereading the last one. I turn the page.  I smile, not burn.

Everyone has the right to choose their way of life. It sounds personal, and it has to. I do believe we choose one to build and sharpen our purpose. Choosing one and moving forward without looking back requires courage and no regret. The journey might be long, tough, fun, messy, uncertain, and colorful. The misery is beyond our imagination. To be able to choose amongst other options and stories means a privilege. It could be given or earned. I need to burn the midnight oil to earn one. It's like labor. I could be ecstatic at the beginning, and to keep going I will deal with monotonous efforts. What makes me strong enough to never stop trying is discipline. This is the habit I need to adopt to be at peace, be mindful, be communicative in expressing what I desire and dislike, observe, set boundaries, and find myself again. Defining the purpose of life can be clear and blurry. It may change as we grow. It is up to me (and us) to let it be relevant to the current situation, to let it fa