Dum Medium Silentium

I was content today to learn to let go of things that shrank me, my shoulders have no more burdens, not even the legs who tried it's best to cardio on a treadmill with 15 incline and 3.8 speed. I am honored to have this privilege and gain more courage to choose to let go and accept things at the same time.  Crying for some people is the weak but may we always remember that strength often comes with tears. Even to lament means to recall how blessed we are to be able to taste hardships and ease too.  At the gym, I met my coach and I got two new friends. They were actually still high school students who trained well. We chit-chatted about why is the gym building always renovated. Yes it looks cool but we just wonder. My new friends look young, smart, and strong and I wonder what was I look like back then when I was just a high school girl. What I remember about me at that time was that I planned numerous things. I'm a bit ambitious but I never showed this character to other peopl...

Let's talk about today We moved on from yesterday  And the knowledge stays Living today is not for tomorrow It's for living  And it's for today Today we ain't hassle-free We were wondering a lot between passersby and stars who has greater amount  who blinks the most and who dares to stay up late when the night's falling If today was a hope So it carried energy that could make us shine or burn instead If today were a city It might be a district with the sun that bleed orange The sky that released the intermittent breeze The crowds that videotaped our words Things were moving, never stopped, and had no idea about resting The day was unfold Each footsteps making rhyme And the phonecalls making plans about what to feel to be a child who loved their parents and never let them abandoned from cries, laughters, fears, surprises, and disgusts about the traffic watched us from their very eyes, they stopped and slept like a snow-covered road about the right to pay our every de...

It was so yesterday that the Coach at the gym inquired me about my digestive system, since I quite often skipped some trainings, unless the cardio one. I had GERD and it came without telling me a signal it was about to come to say hello to me. I promised myself that in one term, means 3 months, I won't taste GERD at all especially in this term, I tried to manage my diet to be better. My objective is not to lose weight, but to battle and heal from GERD gradually.  I was amazed by the result since I followed my Coach's advice in maintaining what I have to eat with less rice and started to consume more of food with complex carbohydrates, such as cassava. And not to forget mentioning the stress regulation is as significant as maintaining my physical health...........until last afternoon to evening. I had a rendezvous with a friend in a restaurant. I ordered spicy food and it's too hot, steamed hazelnut milk tea, and several desserts containing chocolate. A perfect combo. Why? I...

Lost and found, that's what human is after all. Sometime we got lost, sometime we found ourselves not really in a hopeless place. Sometime we need to get lost first in order to find ourselves. Being lost means to empty our glass and to be all set to relearn. Being found means a commitment to be awaken, to be aware of our progress. Lost and found is a yin and a yang. Not about right or wrong, black and white, angel and evil, but about harmony, a perfect blend of life, that to make one complete, our Mother Earth needs sun for morning and day. Then, she will need moon for evening and night. 

If a man worried about something, that's natural and pretty ok. If a man panicked and he turned up their voice a bit, then they really need to talk to us (their woman) and set our listening ears.  "Dear Daddy K, to be an ambitious man to make the dreams come true will cost you an arm and a leg. There is no time to die, to freeze and to sink into the deep ocean. If it's yours, it will be yours. If it's not yours, then pray harder as a spoiled boy seeking help to his parents until it becomes their concern and they decide to support you." Apart from being human after all, we must do our best. Daddy K told me, now he knows how it feels like to be a little boy in grade 4, and he will start to overthink and overanalyze tons of objects plus the pov over it. I also said, "I wish I could hug you since panicking is actually contagious." I just want to transfer back his reaction over the sudden news. But distant humbles us. That's absolutely ok since we at the ...

This past ten days, I was feeling low, having lack of sleep, mood swings, and external stressors. I was also doing diet that affects my health condition. It got worse since I had cramps during my first and second day of period. I was literally dying, I needed the ambulance, and doctor and my Mom and my Daddy K.  I saw doctor to get medical treatment for the cough, flu, and frequent sudden nose bleed. I requested to get antibiotics if it's possible, but the doctor said I didn't really need it. After 5 days treating myself well but still had tons of work to do, my health condition didn't improve that significant. Anyways, I had parents-teachers meeting as well for several hours so I had to postpone my lunch time 3 hours. I was shaking like a leaf.  I went home after finishing my duty. My sister rang me and that's how I know about this powerful drink and we call it 'Jamu'. It's quite simple to prepare one. I am content to be able to experience the benefit of dr...