Dum Medium Silentium

Tears are streaming with power. Tears are pouring with surrender. Tears are flowing with liberation. And tears are peace to let go and welcome the new spirit to grow.  Insya Allah 

This is the 3rd week of August and that means I still have 4 months of opportunities to reach what I want to reach, insya Allah. The journey has never been easy, it's not merely going up and down, it's going to the left and right, zigzagging, twirling, and so on.  This period of time, there were teary moments and that made me complained about it. But at the same time, I am quite grateful for having me and my Zaddy still working so hard on our commitment that takes us far.  Thank you for us and thank you to Allah who never leaves us, who always hugs us each time we need a guidance and a candle that would brighten up the dark chamber.

It doesn't have to be prepared during rainy nights, not at all. It could be prepared anytime at any moment we wanna enjoy one. But I prefer to eat it during dinner since it was simple, yummy, and also healthy.  All I need was minced garlic and ginger, red pepper, 2 tomatoes, green beans, 2 or 3 Omega eggs, corriander leaf, olive oil, fish sauce, salted soy bean, seasalt, and mushroom bouillon. I added a bit of water too to make it soup.  I'd strongly recommend to cook by using water with good quality since it will improve the delicacy. It would be perfect paired with well-cooked rice. Let's love ourselves first sincerely before we love whom coming into our life. 

I was content today to learn to let go of things that shrank me, my shoulders have no more burdens, not even the legs who tried it's best to cardio on a treadmill with 15 incline and 3.8 speed. I am honored to have this privilege and gain more courage to choose to let go and accept things at the same time.  Crying for some people is the weak but may we always remember that strength often comes with tears. Even to lament means to recall how blessed we are to be able to taste hardships and ease too.  At the gym, I met my coach and I got two new friends. They were actually still high school students who trained well. We chit-chatted about why is the gym building always renovated. Yes it looks cool but we just wonder. My new friends look young, smart, and strong and I wonder what was I look like back then when I was just a high school girl. What I remember about me at that time was that I planned numerous things. I'm a bit ambitious but I never showed this character to other peopl...

Let's talk about today We moved on from yesterday  And the knowledge stays Living today is not for tomorrow It's for living  And it's for today Today we ain't hassle-free We were wondering a lot between passersby and stars who has greater amount  who blinks the most and who dares to stay up late when the night's falling If today was a hope So it carried energy that could make us shine or burn instead If today were a city It might be a district with the sun that bleed orange The sky that released the intermittent breeze The crowds that videotaped our words Things were moving, never stopped, and had no idea about resting The day was unfold Each footsteps making rhyme And the phonecalls making plans about what to feel to be a child who loved their parents and never let them abandoned from cries, laughters, fears, surprises, and disgusts about the traffic watched us from their very eyes, they stopped and slept like a snow-covered road about the right to pay our every de...

It was so yesterday that the Coach at the gym inquired me about my digestive system, since I quite often skipped some trainings, unless the cardio one. I had GERD and it came without telling me a signal it was about to come to say hello to me. I promised myself that in one term, means 3 months, I won't taste GERD at all especially in this term, I tried to manage my diet to be better. My objective is not to lose weight, but to battle and heal from GERD gradually.  I was amazed by the result since I followed my Coach's advice in maintaining what I have to eat with less rice and started to consume more of food with complex carbohydrates, such as cassava. And not to forget mentioning the stress regulation is as significant as maintaining my physical health...........until last afternoon to evening. I had a rendezvous with a friend in a restaurant. I ordered spicy food and it's too hot, steamed hazelnut milk tea, and several desserts containing chocolate. A perfect combo. Why? I...