Dum Medium Silentium

Mi amor, my love, Daddy K I said yes to our next journey, thick and thin I said yes to our progress, I'm all set I said yes to the mornings with tears and migraines  and to the nights with hugs and gentle kisses  I said yes to a lifetime prayer till Jannah This ring has given us power and awareness, love and affection, passion and patience, anxiety and peace, uncertainty and assurance, fears and courage, doubt and commitment, comfort over stormy days The knot we tie in this ring, cannot be wiped out Our loyalty worth more than anything we have And may Allah send us guidance, always Oct 2025

Dear baby K, this time I'm no longer call you baby K. I am thankful for the love, harsh journey, rollercoaster feelings, hard conversation, sincere understanding we still and will always build, and you've become my daddy K ever since. Yesterday became one of the best moments in my life to acknowledge your visa approved and congratulations, the flight and your master awaits you already. You deserve it. I still remember back in 18 months ago, you came to me with unhappy face telling me your plan, but at the same time you're afraid that we won't walk hand in hand that far. Daddy K, thank you for being the pillar when the inate storms hitting us. It was just last month I wept a lot with tons of disappointment and seeing myself as a failure, but what amazed me the most was that you didn't even shaking. You kept standing strong and convinced me over and over we'll be fine together insya Allah. I thank you for never giving up on me, on yourself, and on us. I can feel t...

Tears are streaming with power. Tears are pouring with surrender. Tears are flowing with liberation. And tears are peace to let go and welcome the new spirit to grow.  Insya Allah 

This is the 3rd week of August and that means I still have 4 months of opportunities to reach what I want to reach, insya Allah. The journey has never been easy, it's not merely going up and down, it's going to the left and right, zigzagging, twirling, and so on.  This period of time, there were teary moments and that made me complained about it. But at the same time, I am quite grateful for having me and my Zaddy still working so hard on our commitment that takes us far.  Thank you for us and thank you to Allah who never leaves us, who always hugs us each time we need a guidance and a candle that would brighten up the dark chamber.

It doesn't have to be prepared during rainy nights, not at all. It could be prepared anytime at any moment we wanna enjoy one. But I prefer to eat it during dinner since it was simple, yummy, and also healthy.  All I need was minced garlic and ginger, red pepper, 2 tomatoes, green beans, 2 or 3 Omega eggs, corriander leaf, olive oil, fish sauce, salted soy bean, seasalt, and mushroom bouillon. I added a bit of water too to make it soup.  I'd strongly recommend to cook by using water with good quality since it will improve the delicacy. It would be perfect paired with well-cooked rice. Let's love ourselves first sincerely before we love whom coming into our life. 

I was content today to learn to let go of things that shrank me, my shoulders have no more burdens, not even the legs who tried it's best to cardio on a treadmill with 15 incline and 3.8 speed. I am honored to have this privilege and gain more courage to choose to let go and accept things at the same time.  Crying for some people is the weak but may we always remember that strength often comes with tears. Even to lament means to recall how blessed we are to be able to taste hardships and ease too.  At the gym, I met my coach and I got two new friends. They were actually still high school students who trained well. We chit-chatted about why is the gym building always renovated. Yes it looks cool but we just wonder. My new friends look young, smart, and strong and I wonder what was I look like back then when I was just a high school girl. What I remember about me at that time was that I planned numerous things. I'm a bit ambitious but I never showed this character to other peopl...